How do I motivate myself to get organized with reference to my housework?

by Kati
(Austin, Texas)

I am currently doing my Master's online and have become a bit compulsive with it. Every day, I tell myself that I need to organize my sanctuary and the remainder of the house, but there seems to be a mental block interfering with my goals.

I attribute some of this back to a marriage where my ex-spouse put me on a pedestal and over time, I found that I was not living up to his expectations of me. He also did not validate my contributions to the family and upkeep of the house and that hurt. So, I internalized his disappointment and from then on I do not seem to care about my surroundings.

It is vital to me to understand how I can revitalize this part of me. I feel like white trash and know that is not true, but my environment evidences otherwise.

I appreciate both of you and hope that I am capable of attaining the balance necessary in my life.
KT